Easter Sunday

Easter was a great. I woke up early to make JT some easter breakfast. (A few weeks ago, JT bought us an industrial blender. It's amazing! So every morning we make fresh fruit smoothies mmm yumm!) We didn't have any food, so I just made the normal Smoothie and eggs. Haha.. We went to church in the morning of course. The speakers were all relatively entertaining, which is good, cause I am like a little kid in sacrament meeting. I just want to write notes back and forth with Jates, and I make him draw pictures on my back, and then I try and guess, and I also enjoy playing with our friends Caroline and William ( a 1 and 4 year old). Anyways. I did pay attention this Sunday. I went into Gospel Essential sunday school. I know it is a basic class. But I feel like I learn more, cause I actually know what they are talking about. I enjoy gospel Doctorine too, but sometimes it just gets soooo deep, and I am I like to actually know the answer when I am asked a question!! ha! Sorry, I am getting side tract!... I am a Relief Society teacher once a month, and Easter was my turn to teach. I felt like I did a great job. I don't often feel that way! Right after Church, there was a baptism. A family of 3. JT has become pretty close with the boys, so they asked him if he would baptize them. I love watching JT use his priesthood, especially for something this special. It was a really neat experience.
JT had to close the restaurant, so I was left to my lonesome all night. I just scrubbed the house and watched movies with my great friend Karrie. It was fine. Holidays make me really miss my family. They always do fun stuff..

Week 2

I am actually quite proud of myself.. I am at 165 now! So 5 pounds down, 15 to go!! I think that the main thing that is helping me is that I invested in a scale. I haven't weighed myself in years! I was terrified to know what the damage was. But now I know the dreaded number, so I can't stay off the scale! Jamie! You are right! I also find myself jumping on the scale whenever I walk in the bathroom. Anyway! Back to the part about the scale helping me out the most, because if I eat something I shouldnt, like a huge, fried Chimiganga with sour cream and guacamole, then I immediatly gain 3 pounds back for every screw up! So, I have nearly steared away from bad fatty meals. I will have a few candies every now and then, just to keep everything in moderation. I also quit Diet Coke! I had one glass with dinner when I engourged myself with that sickly delicious Chimichanga. But I feel pretty dang good!! I am drinking tons and tons of water. I do need to exersize more.. that is the hardest part!
I have to laugh at myself, because I feel a bit thinner, so I tried on my skinny jeans, just in case they fit yet. Fat chance!..... literally

I want to get skinny too!!

My sister Jamie started a blog about her weightloss! I thought it was a grand idea. This way, family friends keep tabs on her, and encourage her. I would like to do the same. She blogs weekly about her weight loss, her strengths and weaknesses. I am basically going to do the same by recording my goal now.

I am going to do a little venting, because no one likes to have an awkward conversation where the chubby girl complains and pokes fun about her own weight constantly. So when I blog it.. you can stop reading anytime. It's also nice you can say what you really think and I can't hear you. (Though, it would be nice to get advise or comments)

To start, I have literally always have had issues with my weight, as long as I can remember. I remember being a little kid, walking aroung "Video Vault" (where my sister worked, in result, getting FREE rentals! yipee!) holding my favorite movie to rent "Girls Just Want To Have Fun" and being soooo excited and telling my sister I couldn't wait to loose my baby fat. Ha! Yeah right! Like it was just going to go away.

I remember wearing my red flower shorts my mom just made for me to my 2nd grade class. When I sat down my thighs flattened out and appeared bigger I guess, and this stupid kid, Seth Strong kept staring at my thighs like they were so sick... I so vividly remember these things.

I remember asking my Mom why I was the chubby sister. All of my other sisters were so cute and skinny! She just told me that Gran lived with us, she would just feed me constantly. Haha. Dang it Gran!! Why did you feed me soooo much???

When I reached 9th grade, I got my first boyfriend. He went to Hawaii for a week, and I wanted to surprise him by being skinny when he got back. So I basically stopped eating , and lost 10 pounds in that week. When he got back, he noticed, and I excitedly told him how much I lost, and he said "10 pounds?!! That is like a sack of potatoes!!" Nice compliment Mitch Rice!

Losing weight became an obsession. I had SO much self control and motivation (I have NO idea where those qualities of mine went!) I went running, and did Tae Boe all the time, I did crunchies while watching TV, I recorded in my Journal everything that went in my mouth and how much I weighed that day. I really did look good. I was cute and curvy. I was a size 4-6 and usually 130 pounds. If someone would have told me back then "Mackenzie, when you turn 22, you will be busting out of a size 12 and weigh 170 pounds. Plus your thighs will touch all the way down." I would have wanted to shoot my face off!! I am not looking forward to my 5 year reunion "Hi! I have gained 40 pounds since high school, and I work at Macy's." Sick!!

I am thankful I have a supportive husband, and he likes the way I look, and he has made my self - esteem be higher than I ever. But, I really want to get into shape! My Goal is to look the way I did when JT met me. I was a 150 pounds, and a size 8. I would be totally happy with that. My plan is to eat less, cut out Diet Coke completly, cut out Hoe hoes and all that sick stuff I think is so heavenly. I am going to do cardio 3 times weekly with light weight lifting. I actually started 2 days ago, and now I am 168 pounds. Go ME!