

My sister Jamie started a blog about her weightloss! I thought it was a grand idea. This way, family friends keep tabs on her, and encourage her. I would like to do the same. She blogs weekly about her weight loss, her strengths and weaknesses. I am basically going to do the same by recording my goal now.
I am going to do a little venting, because no one likes to have an awkward conversation where the chubby girl complains and pokes fun about her own weight constantly. So when I blog it.. you can stop reading anytime. It's also nice you can say what you really think and I can't hear you. (Though, it would be nice to get advise or comments)
To start, I have literally always have had issues with my weight, as long as I can remember. I remember being a little kid, walking aroung "Video Vault" (where my sister worked, in result, getting FREE rentals! yipee!) holding my favorite movie to rent "Girls Just Want To Have Fun" and being soooo excited and telling my sister I couldn't wait to loose my baby fat. Ha! Yeah right! Like it was just going to go away.
I remember wearing my red flower shorts my mom just made for me to my 2nd grade class. When I sat down my thighs flattened out and appeared bigger I guess, and this stupid kid, Seth Strong kept staring at my thighs like they were so sick... I so vividly remember these things.
I remember asking my Mom why I was the chubby sister. All of my other sisters were so cute and skinny! She just told me that Gran lived with us, she would just feed me constantly. Haha. Dang it Gran!! Why did you feed me soooo much???
When I reached 9th grade, I got my first boyfriend. He went to Hawaii for a week, and I wanted to surprise him by being skinny when he got back. So I basically stopped eating , and lost 10 pounds in that week. When he got back, he noticed, and I excitedly told him how much I lost, and he said "10 pounds?!! That is like a sack of potatoes!!" Nice compliment Mitch Rice!
Losing weight became an obsession. I had SO much self control and motivation (I have NO idea where those qualities of mine went!) I went running, and did Tae Boe all the time, I did crunchies while watching TV, I recorded in my Journal everything that went in my mouth and how much I weighed that day. I really did look good. I was cute and curvy. I was a size 4-6 and usually 130 pounds. If someone would have told me back then "Mackenzie, when you turn 22, you will be busting out of a size 12 and weigh 170 pounds. Plus your thighs will touch all the way down." I would have wanted to shoot my face off!! I am not looking forward to my 5 year reunion "Hi! I have gained 40 pounds since high school, and I work at Macy's." Sick!!
I am thankful I have a supportive husband, and he likes the way I look, and he has made my self - esteem be higher than I ever. But, I really want to get into shape! My Goal is to look the way I did when JT met me. I was a 150 pounds, and a size 8. I would be totally happy with that. My plan is to eat less, cut out Diet Coke completly, cut out Hoe hoes and all that sick stuff I think is so heavenly. I am going to do cardio 3 times weekly with light weight lifting. I actually started 2 days ago, and now I am 168 pounds. Go ME!